this is a virtual time capsule for 2012.
then there where will i be?
who will i become?
meanwhile, comments are welcome on each post while i figure out how to relocate my cbox.
for pw protected entries, you know what to do! 
helter skelter.
the pond skater glides on the still surface of the pond, barely breaking into a sweat. graceful, unpredictable.
the mind twirls like a ribbon in a dance, complicated but easily unravelled. mesmerizing with its crazy arcs and curves.
tiny as it may be, you know it does not belong.
so skate down the icy path that is yours. chilly but remember to keep yourself warm, keep yourself true.
it’s rather scary to be so calm, sometimes.
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the pencil.
the pencil makes its mark on the paper. much to its displeasure, the eraser comes along and erases the stray marks that have fallen, both coincidentally and accidentally. just point blank. plainly. rudely.
who are you to judge what is the perspective of the artist? who are you to claim you know what is going on? what is the scenery that you paint to be like? stop living in your world of deceit.
it is pouring out there. so live life and stop living in your airconditioned hellhole and pretend you know what it is like to get drenched.
you may fall sick, you may feel your clothes sticking to you like glue. but at least i can safely say that i have tried it before, you coward.
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seems like.
I seem to have aged. forgetting things. losing my train of thought in the middle of a sentence.
but some things are meant to be forgotten.
I would like to prance around in a white or light pink tutu gown. and imagine I’m flying.
bask in the sunshine and make it seem like I’ll grow. perspire a little then see that glimmer of light thru a pearl of perspiration. when the heart beats faster, you know you’re alive.
it seems so easy for you to say and judge and claim that you have set your expectations low, but goodness what actually comes out of you is unthinkable. I don’t know how to believe you anymore. out of sight out of mind.
I’m trying my best always. and I don’t care if you can see, cos you are just pretentious. no point playing your instrument to the cow. cos this cow’s ain’t listening to your hideous jarring tunes.
it seems so easy to watch the fireworks fly, yet what would happen next?
I’m pushing it a little. so if it comes it comes.
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oldies the mouldies.
WEDNESDAY, MARCH 23, 2005
the moment 这一刻
while looking for something on your table, you accidentalli take a swipe at the cupon your desk…
you grab a box of cereal from the tallest shelf in the supermarket, and suddenli realise the other boxes have lost their balance too…
you order something and realise you forgot to bring your wallet along…
HOW?
…in that split second, you wonder how you became so agile, and use your hand tohold on to the cup, so that it doesn’t spill on your documents or on the floor…
…you stand awae and wait for the boxes to drop to the floor, then start saying aloud, “hmm i wonder who did this?” and start packing them back into the shelves, perhaps tryin to act as if you work in the supermarket…
…quickli cancel your order and start talking on the fone and walking awae, although it nv rang…
OR…
watch your fave cup smash itself to pieces on the floor, or dye your documents into a beautiful dirty brown colour.
run awae with the box of cereal you took..run and get out of evribodi’s sight. but u din realise there was areadi a crowd gathering at e commotion.
juz leave once the shopkeeper’s back is turned. without you realising the shopkeeper started chasing after you once you thought u were safe to leave.
what would you do?
it’s all a matter of the moment. wat you do at that time. whether you hurt someone first and end up hurting urself more, or save yourself and avoid the embarrassment. just tt split second. when u decide to do sth. u may sae its over, but it has areadi happened. it mite hv hurt, n it mite hv hurt deep. without u even realising it. damage done.
some of those forwarded email thingies…which is v true…
不要等被爱了以后, 才去爱.
不要等到寂寞了, 才明白朋友的价值, 重要.
不要非要等到一份最好的工作, 才开始工作.
不要等别人受伤了, 才来乞求原谅.
也不要等分开了, 才来挽回.n my response?
爱是无私奉献的, 不只限于儿女私情. 爱身边的每一个人, 既然爱是无止境的.
时刻提醒自己朋友的存在, 用力去维持友谊. 一旦疏远就很难如往.
有钱为何不赚? 除非你是大富翁. 但现在的我们也许还不需那么在意. 别把自己累坏, 钱只不过是身外物.
伤口虽已复原, 但伤疤永在, 提醒那时受了伤的你. 言语上的关怀, 也许太迟, 也许根本帮不了什么.
结局已摆在眼前, 要做垂死的挣扎, 有用吗?也许一切已经迟了.
但当你什么都不了解, 只一味的误解, 怀疑,
那结局是
免谈.
你自找的.就在那一刻
MONDAY, MAY 01, 2006 @ 12:30 AM
i like your toothy smiles
i like your spiky hair
i like your smiling eyesi like the way you talk about things that dont make sense
i like the way you tease
i like the way you make people smilei like your neat handwriting
i like your simple smiley faces (cos you’re not arty farty)
i like your little post its here and therei like the way you put your heart and soul in things you do
i like you being a workaholic
i like you being serious in your worki like your surprises
i like the way you talk to me
i like the way you play the guitar and singi like to see you tending to the plants
i like the way you’re proud of your room
i like the way you make everyone feel like a familyi like the way you often go out of your way to help people
altho i dont really like you being ‘spiderman’
and being stressed to the roots of your hair
or bring tired and falling asleep almost anywherei like you being a family man
i like you being a great friend
i like you loving yourselfsomeone else can come up to me and tell me he can do all this
but its just different
because
i love youi like the way you smile
the way my hand in yours
if this way is probably wrong
i dont wanna be right
if you cant come to me
i can alwyz go to you
if i cant have all of you
just a little bit will do
>a little bit will do< mainworks (C)SATURDAY, JULY 29, 2006 @ 10:00 PM
when we were bored in the meeting room at coral…we had alot of crazy discussions…one most memorable one is the 5 aspects of your bf/gf…some of us shared behind closed doors…and nows my turn! =D
1. sense of humour –> i alwyz end up being the butt of everyone’s jokes…and u can’t realli expect mi to laff at myself…so he gotta make mi laff! or if i can laff at him…thats realli fine too…
2. filial –> not at the extent of mummy’s boy…but gotta be the type that thinks of his family…and on good terms with them…if he can’t be on gd terms with his family…how can he be on good terms with mine?
3. not onli hears but listens –> yes i talk alot…so he muz be the listening ear and understand me…so muz internalise…tts the diff…u hear noise but u listen to music…
4. treats me like a princess –> yes i wann be all those disney princesses rolled into one…little lamb, or fierce ox u sae?
5. can be cranky –> this is one special characteristic of me…so perhaps if he is this wae…he can understan mi better…birds of a feather flock tog wat…eg. when im tired…i speak like im drunk…ahaha…see u can tahan or not…FRIDAY, MARCH 23, 2007 @ 4:23 PM
有没有感受过
一种内心挣扎的感觉
左脑想做 右脑却又阻止
要说是考验毅力嘛 又不是
说是分辨对错左右上下 也不是
结果只能摊在那边
人体存在 脑和心都不知飞到哪里去了告诉自己其实坚持下去也不知道会有什么结果
就干脆真的不去做
但始终还是下手了
带来了头不对尾的答案
绳子的身上还是一结又一结你说我是特别的 就只有如此眷顾着
捧在手心 却暂且是幻影
你却似乎有些愿意
而且愿意了差不多两年译:
如果看见我和别人走在路上
并不是因为喜欢她的陪伴
是因为你不够勇气走在我身旁
如果听到我整天说着她的事
并不是因为她令我开心
是因为你没听见我的心跳
如你感觉到我喜欢上了别人
并不是因为我爱她
是因为你没有在我失足的时候拉我一把
如果你迷失了方向
我也会不知所措
我也不知道前面的路要怎么走
我们会相遇在交会的路上吗
还是转过头掉头就走
我们会放掉手中所拥有的
还是前往爱情存在的地方
不要让我和她走在一起
我只想和你一起走下去
不要让我提起她的名字
我只想和你一起说下去
不要让我爱上她的一切
我只想一辈子喜欢着你等待着天空放晴的一天
i don’t know how. but i spent a long time rereading and reliving a few years of my life from my old blog.
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谢谢
夜深了
谢谢你停下睡眠
聆听
死命地
逗著，说着
有点无厘头，却有意思
淡淡的
让我不再感到彷徨无助
也不会觉得
忠言逆耳，就聆听
着
谢谢你
这个无意输给周公的渔夫
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